I want to kill myself, why shouldnt i?

I literally feel alone. I have "friends" that txt, email, NEVER see me. It's like pulling teeth to see them. I can't get a date. I did this stupid crime online and now am a " offender" and didn't feel so good about myself before, so this really does wonders. I hadn't even ever had my own place, lived on my own before that, hadn't really even lived life. Now because I bought a blank videotape, I am marked for 20 years. I go to a shrink (mandated), as u can c I want to kill myself, they're doing an awesome job. Life if for those with people around them. Poor people have a gazillion kids n family members, they have people to lean on - I have one person, my crippled aunt, who I help out but who, after she dies, won't be around and I have no one besides that. My sister doesn't talk to me anymore, she said she trusted me after the whold child thing, but she doesn't see me, doesn't call. Actions speak louder than words. So everything I've tried to achieve has failed - performing career, love life, social life, what is there to live for on my own? I'm 32 years old, I don't want to be alone.